Monday, June 25, 2007
9:21 PM
「 feel so bad 」
i hav a difficult weekend last weekend
it's never been my way of talking to someone like that
i feel like i'm a stranger to myself
first time ever, i've confronted to my close frien
thinking back to wat had happened,
it was actually a very tiny thing which is not suppose to cause it to happen
i was a little bit too sensitive..but, we r ok now..
sometimes it's good to say it out then keep it to myself
i feel so relief n i've managed to put it away very fast
but there's another thing that also made myself feel bad too
i've just push someone away so badly
it was a stupid n unacceptable thing that i did
i'm so vulnerable
how i wish i wasn't such a fool
thinking that's the best way for us
but i just can't help it
though, i'm still hoping for the day that i will change my mind
coz i know i will
i hope i will receive a reply soon
that can make me feel better
n make things remain as the normal way as we did
p/s: this is the first time i'm able to say everything out
i'm still waiting for a reply...
