Saturday, November 12, 2005
12:39 AM
「 Pathetic 」
while ppl playing happily
n get flying colors
i hav to concentrate
extremely hard to reach that point
n yet
i thought i hav done my best
still
their results
r far away better than mine
y is this happen to me?
y do i feel like
i'm dead as zombie
feeling nothing
about the situation
that i suppose to hav?!
m i too pessimistic?
i shouldn't threat it as a whole part of my life?
'' at this point, it's just unavoidable...
everything seems to be getting serious... ''
or just hav a wrong perception of 'working hard'?
or that's just my fate?
seems like i can't get to absorp more n more things...
